well, yea.
My phone is um well. Dead.
so yea.
My problem is I have no idea how i am going to tell my dad.
But mai plan is to tell him i left it with my friend, she brought it to repair, and it will take 2-4 weeks.
then within this two to four weeks, get an iphone 4. how? idk.
All I know is that my current plan is to buy a iphone 4(have to be iphone 4 cause it's micro sim, and it's under my dad's name.) for like 550 dollars.
so i will borrow $50 from 11 people.
if i dont hit enough people. i might turn to my secret plan2.
if i have like 300-450~, i would rent an iphone.(yes i'm despo) and fake it that that's mine.
My dad wont check the imei.
so yea.
If someone has any iota what to do, please i sincerely beg you to tweet me @cricantrail thank you.
plan 1 better work.

may2, 2011. repost apr 2, 2012.
Schizophrenia is a mental disorder characterized by a disintegration of thought processes and of emotional responsiveness. It most commonly manifests as auditory hallucinations, paranoid or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech and thinking, and it is accompanied by significant social or occupational dysfunction. The onset of symptoms typically occurs in young adulthood, with a global lifetime prevalence of about 0.3–0.7%. Diagnosis is based on observed behavior and the patient's reported experiences. 
Schizophrenia often leads to major depression and the suicide rates are higher.
Life expectancy shorter.
Such people often face problems like poverty and homelessness too.


Symptoms:
Impairment in social cognition
paranoia
social withdrawal


Often happen in:
Late adolescence
Early adulthood
Critical periods of one's life


One sub type is paranoia type. Where delusions and hallucinations are present but thought disorder, disorganized behavior, and affective flattening are absent.


Another is disorganized type.Weird speech usage, weird behavior and impairment in thought and response.


Dealing with paranoia.
Often what you believe is not what others really think.
Stop having low self esteem, believe in yourself.
People are not there to hurt you.
You do have many real friends.


Thats all, enjoy.
It is a short one tho, as I recently blogged pages, but it is a good one.

crying the whole night. hope someone understand my pain.

eveen listening to the most faith boosting song also like useless.

what has become of the world around me, that i have to put up a brave front till everyone's gone and then i can cry...... when i used to just burst in tears and people understand... where are those people now?
they turn into people who are the cool bunch, awesome people,stuck up people, ignorant people.
goshh.
i just want to be able to cry hugging a person, but no one is there when i need them except one.
and yet, he doesnt fufill the leader role i'm looking for.
Lord. i turn to you.

crying like mad.,... If it is possinle....

today is a sad day la.
Holding no grudges to anyone but myself.
yes, it was my fault for being too well, on the phone and emo even before the incident.
so it's ok. i just hope that all will turn out fine.
just dont push me down the water ever again. I'm seriously scared. luckily i didn't lose my cool and my tongue.
if i lost my tongue, that's it man haha.
haiz......
after the trip, i was just thinking about songs that should go through my head.
there were too many songs that i became confused and failed-hyper.
then just before i reached home, i went to the playground which i used to go to to play after sec sch every day for 35 mins to listen to church songs. been a year since i did that. and i lie down, saw the moon, and the right song finally came.
God oh God take a hold of me all over all over
God oh God take a hold of me, all over all over
God oh God take a hold of me, turn me upside down let's make history,
let your power get inside me,
show me what i can be~ take a hold of me~
wo oh wo oh wo oh
wo oh wo oh wo ohhhh(low voice)
You have filled this heart of mine, with your grace and lvoe divine,
I can;t help but worship you
You have filled this space between,
all my hopes and all my dreams
I'm so thankful that you came for me
so this is my prayer today
God oh God take a hold of me
all over all over
God oh God take a hold of me
all over all over
God oh God take a hold of me turn me upside down let's make history
let your power come inside me show me hat i can be
take a hold of me
 and Bam.
I cried.
tears just flowed.
flowwwwwwwed.
it is my destiny to serve God and that's final.
I'll overcome all things.
for Romans 12;21 says
do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Adam Young:
Where was I when the rockets came to life
And carried you away into the alligator sky?
Even though I'll never know what's up ahead
I'm never lettin' go, I'm never lettin' go

Shawn Chrystopher:
Uh uh, that's not a plane, that's me
I'm sittin' where I'm supposed to
Floatin' on the cloud, can't nobody come close to
The concrete and the sky switch places
So now my ceiling is painted with cosmic spaces
Firecracker to the moon, keep your eyes shut
Blastin' off like a rocket from the ground up
I used to catch a cab on the Monday
Now the taxi's sellin' lights on the runway, fly
Condo on the milky way
A house on the cloud and God's my landlord
And for my rent all I pay is my drive, I got that
So if you need me you can find me in the alligator sky

Adam:
Where was I when the rockets came to life
And carried you away into the alligator sky?
Even though I'll never know what's up ahead
I'm never lettin' go, I'm never lettin' go

Roller coaster through the atmosphere
I'm drowning in this starry serenade
Where ecstasy becomes cavalier
My imagination's taking me away

Reverie whispered in my ear
I'm scared to death that I'll never be afraid
Roller coaster through the atmosphere
My imagination's taking me away

Shawn:
Uh, now I'mma dance like I never dance
Sing like I never sing, dream like I never dreamed
Or try to, 'cause we've been lied to
That the sun is somethin' that we can't fly to
Well, I sit on my star and see street lights
Look up, ha, you'll miss me if you blink twice
Imagination is hot and if you got it you can meet me
When you see me in the alligator sky

Adam:
Where was I when the rockets came to life
And carried you away into the alligator sky?
Even though I'll never know what's up ahead
I'm never lettin' go, I'm never lettin' go

In the alligator sky...

someboddy help meeeeeeee~

well, does God manage our circumstances?
by jon walker.

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Isaiah 30:21 (NIV)

In faith, we know this to be true:

God manages circumstances.

Whether I turn to the right or to the left, my ears will hear a voice behind me, saying, “This is the way; walk in it” (Isaiah 30:21 NIV).

He makes my paths straight as I lean on him and acknowledge him (Proverbs 3:5–6). He’s placed a hedge around me and he blesses the work of my hands (Job 1:10).

God says he is the only one capable of interpreting circumstances: “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways . . . . As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts” (Isaiah 55:8–9 NIV).

When I see the circumstances the way God does, he says, “You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and hills will burst into song before you, and all the trees of the field will clap their hands” (Isaiah 55:12 NIV).

Praise God! “Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?” (Romans 11:34NIV).

He sees the path before us, and calls us forth in faith (Genesis 22:12), showing us there are no coincidences in this universe of his design: “And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?” (Esther 4:14 NIV).

So let's walk in faith, and not by sight.

from Pastor Rick Warren:

Here are three essentials for breaking through the barriers to church growth.

You must develop an unshakable conviction about growth (Colossians 2:19).An opinion is something you’ll argue about; a conviction is something you’ll die for. You need to settle the issue that God wants his church to grow. All living things grow. If a church is alive, it grows. Growing a healthy church is hard work, and unless you clarify your convictions, you’re going to be tempted to give up. You have to develop this conviction because:

• God commands growth. He did so through the Great Commission.
• People demand it. The world is desperately looking for an authoritative message in a humble personality. That combination is irresistible.

You must change the primary role of the pastor from minister to leader. What’s the difference? In leadership, you take the initiative; in ministry, you respond to the needs of others. When someone calls and you pick up the phone, that’s ministry. When you pick up the phone and call someone, that’s leadership. Typically, you learn ministry skills in seminary, but you learn leadership skills in seminars. Pastoring is a balance. Here are five skills you must learn if your church is going to grow:

• Learn to communicate your vision.
• Learn the ability to motivate through messages.
• Learn how to equip for ministry. If you don’t learn how to coach, you will not be able to equip. And, if you do not equip, you will burn out in ministry.
• Learn how to raise money. Those who write the agenda must also be able to underwrite it.
• Learn the skill of managing your time and energy.

You must organize around the gifts of your people. In the New Testament, there is not a single explicit organizational pattern about church. It doesn’t tell us how to organize the church or give us job descriptions for deacons or elders. Why did God leave the structure so vague? So that it could fit in every culture and every age. You must build your church around the talent God has already given you. Whatever God wants your church to do at this moment, the talent is already there in the church. God wants your church organized on the giftedness of your members. 

And yes, i am not a pastor or even a cell group leader. But, if I have the mindset of a leader, I will grow to be a leader. now:D

Our God is an awesome God He reigns from heaven above With wisdom power and love Our God is an awesome God!(: Boom boom pah~(claps*) One of my fav songs since primary school.(:

Yui Again English Translation / Subs I am supposed to pursue my dream in this narrow winding road, stuttering in the crowds of people It's not that I want to return to that past, I am just searching for the sky I have lost. I hope you understand. Don't show the sad face as if you have been sacrificed. Tears do not end a sin. We have to carry it with us through in this maze of feelings with no ends in sight. Who am I waiting for? As scribbled on the blank note, I want to be more honest. What do I want to escape from? Is it this thing called "reality"? "For what am I living?" In the middle of the night as my memories are fading. I can't play safe anymore, but there is nowhere to go too. There's still so much in life to remove this feeling. I will feel nostalgic about it. I welcome this pain. I have to apologize for this. Ah, I'm sorry. I can't say it well. I'm just causing worries. Everything that I embraced that day. Everything that I will embrace tomorrow I will not arrange them in any order. I hope you understand. I closed my eyes but I could still see things I do not want to see. Unnecessary rumors that I hear for the first time, so what? "Face it and you will be friends" Don't tell lies like these. My heart being agitated from deep inside, a burning sensation runs through my body. Actually I'm expecting something from this thing called "reality". "For what am I living?" I want to shout it out loud. Can you hear me? I can't play safe anymore, but there is nowhere to go too. I am grateful for all the kindness, so I want to become stronger to march on. I do welcome friends and foes. How do I open the next door? I'm thinking. The unretractable story has begun. Open your eyes. Open your eyes. There is still so much in life to remove this feeling. I want to start all over again so that I can complete what I haven't done. Shall we go AGAIN? "For what am I living?" I want to shout it out loud. Can you hear me? I can't play safe anymore, but there is nowhere to go too. I am grateful for all the kindness, so I want to become stronger. I feel the nostalgia. I welcome this pain.

Your new Life - OwlCity

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Your New Life

This hit me.
Since you were raised from the dead with Christ, aim at what is in heaven where Christ is sitting at the right hand of God. Think only about the things in heaven, not the things on earth. Your old sinful self has died and your new life is kept with Christ in God. Christ is your life and when he comes again you will share in his glory.
Col 3:1-4

Hi people!!!
heheehee.
So recently I had two christian friends debating about yoga. One said that yoga is from the root of hinduism. The other said that it can be done just as an exercise, if you dont care so much.
my stand? it is just an exercise.
This reminded me of something.
Paul said this:" that his faith gave him the liberty to enjoy the steak no matter where it had come from. He simple gave thanks for it and ate it. However, if he knew that a brother's faith was weak, or rather the brother's conscience was weak, he would not eat it, for the love of his brother. It is not for his sake, but his brother's sake." When you do what Paul did with weak faith, you feel guilty, thus you will be sinning, is not good.
This is because Romans 14 :23 says 'the man who has doubts is condemned if he eats, because his eating is not from faith, and everything that does not come from faith is sin.
that believer who saw Paul eating would have screamed out that the steak Paul is eating has an insignia of an IDOL!! 
But Paul says to eat whatever that is set before you, without asking questions for conscience sake. The thing however is that we should not try to live out of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil(which is our conscience, and the opposite of the tree of life therefore the tree of death).
FAITH COPES WITH IT ALL
Hope that all enjoyed the post! heehee:D

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Today, I have nothing much to post.

However, I am impacted by this word that pastor Rick Warren shared:

Seven Marks Of A Healthy Small Group:

Pastor Rick shared these practical reasons during his weekly webcast for pastors involved in 40 Days in the Word. You can hear the whole message at http://40daysintheword.com/webcast/.

Here are seven marks of a healthy small group, based on Acts 2:42-47 (NIV):

1. Healthy small groups study the Bible. Small groups in the New Testament studied the Bible together. Acts 2:42 says, “They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching …” Of course, we know the teaching of the apostles is what we call the New Testament today. They lived in an oral culture, but they were still studying lessons from the apostles.

One thing you can do is have your small groups study what you taught the congregation on Sunday. At Saddleback, we have a group of volunteers who create “Talk It Over” guides that we put online Sunday night. These can be printed out and used by small groups during the week. They include questions related to the Scriptures we studied in the weekend services, plus additional verses to consider.

The benefit of this is that it helps people focus on one Bible truth. Too often we teach too much. When I was growing up, I could go to church throughout the week and end up with as many as 13 different Bible studies. I started thinking, “My life can’t change that much.” Sometimes I think we teach too much, so something like the “Talk It Over” guide will allow your congregation to focus on one biblical truth a week.

2. Healthy small groups share life together. The Book of Acts says the early believers were devoted to fellowship (Acts 2:42). This means they were serious about their friendships. Notice the Bible says they were devoted to the fellowship, not just to fellowship. In other words, fellowship is not just something the church does; we are the fellowship.

Jesus calls us to be committed to one another, and it is through small groups that we learn the skills of relationship. Small groups are laboratories of love, where we learn to obey the command of Jesus to love your neighbor as you love yourself.

3. Healthy small groups remember Jesus together. The Bible says the early believers devoted themselves “to the breaking of bread and to prayer” (Acts 2:42). The “breaking of bread” in this passage specifically refers to Communion (or the Lord’s Supper). In the early Church, they did not take Communion in a large worship setting. They served it in small groups.

You will, of course, want to work within the tradition of your church, but at Saddleback we allow small groups to serve Communion. For one thing, Communion is only for believers, so a small group setting ensures only believers will take part.

4. Healthy small groups pray together. The Bible says the early believers devoted themselves to prayer (Acts 2:42). Jesus taught that there is a power to prayers spoken aloud for each other, and he made an incredible promise about small groups of believers: “For where two or three have gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst” (Matthew 18:20 NASB). In the intimacy and confidentiality of small groups, we can pray for each other as we share our hurts, reveal our feelings, confess our failures, disclose our doubts, admit our fears, acknowledge our weaknesses, and ask for help.

5. Healthy small groups are generous. The Bible says these small groups gave “to anyone who had need” (Acts 2:45 NIV). Small groups allow us to help each other with practical needs. Can I loan you a car? Can I provide you with some meals when you are sick?

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We tend to centralize ministries, creating a food pantry or a counseling center. But this wasn’t the New Testament model. The early Church had decentralized ministries, so that’s what we try to do at Saddleback. Let me give you an example. A few years ago, one of our members met someone who had been in a bad situation and ended up homeless. She bought the homeless person a meal and then provided him with a bus ticket to where a sister lived.

The next day, the Saddleback member told me about it and said, “There are lots of homeless people. The Church should do something about it.” I said, “The Church just did.” The next Sunday, I got up and told the congregation, “I release you to assist the poor and feed the hungry and help the homeless.” There are small groups at Saddleback doing all kinds of ministry that I know nothing about. We’ve decentralized by giving them permission to engage in ministry as a small group.

6. Healthy small groups worship together. The Bible says the New Testament small groups worshiped together, “praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people” (Acts 2:47). We need to worship God more than once a week, and small groups offer an opportunity to worship together.

7. Healthy small groups witness together. As these small groups met together, “the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved” (Acts 2:47). They were inviting others to join them. One of the proofs of a healthy small group is that it reproduces, so a small group may add members, but a small group may also help start another small group.

Small groups can be creative in outreach. For instance, one small group at Saddleback pooled their money and bought season tickets for the San Diego Chargers for everyone in the group, but they also bought some extra tickets. They go together to each game, but they also use the extra tickets to invite others to come with the group. They don’t start a Bible study at the game; they just have fun. But that allows them to say, “This same group meets on Tuesday nights for Bible study. Would you like to join us?”

Something I need to learn

1cor 13:
Though i speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not loved, i have become sounding brass and clanging cymbals. And though i have the gift of prophecy, and understood all mysteries and knowledge and though i have faith, so that i could remove mountains, but have not love, i am nothing. And though i bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though i give my body to be burned, but have not loved, it profits me nothing.

Even if we are the most recognised person in philantrophy, and can do the most glorious miracle since jesus's time, but if we do not love people, it is useless. It is easy to have faith in easy circumstances, but hard to love. Because even in easy circumstances we have people we dont want to love, let alone tough cirumstances!
And if we lose faith in tough circumstances, what about love?
Love is really what one needs.
When a boy tells his dad about that day's incident in school, his father listens because he love. And the boy tells and shares with his dad because he love his dad! If his father ignores him, the first reaction will be:"papa dont love me. He has no time for me anymore." we help one another because we love one another and cant bear to see him/her in distress. In this world we all look for love. In bad times, we lose all hope and fear, fear of debts, fear of loss of friends, and much more fear causes us to lose faith. What then is the solution to this problem? The answer is love. For perfect love cast out all fear.
In fact, hope and faith is part of love.
When you have love, you have hope in that love, and you have faith in that love.
Thus, my point today is this; love is important. Love someone today. Not someone you know, for even bad people do so, and loansharks do so. But love the unloved, and the unchurched. For those are whom, require love.
If i have said anything wrong, i apologise for my carelessness. Enjoy!:D

Truth is, i dont know.
I dont know what i want to do in life.
I dont know what course i want to go.
I dont know whether i really like animation.
I dont know.
I dont know if i am going to suceed in life.
I dont know if things would work out.
I dont know if i want to stay alone.
I dont know what is the feeling of love.
Many things i dont know.
The more i want to know, the more the misery and the more the signs saying no. You cant know.
I really want to take a 1 month break and do nothing. Like really. Just rot.
Guess i cant.:D too many things to do.

I hate myself.
For all the things i have done.
For all the stupid decisions i made.
For all the miscommunications that constantly revolve around me.
For all the times where i helped others.
For all the time wasted doing nothing.
For being me.
For being insignificant.
For being ridiculous.
For being responsible.
For having morals.
For having a code of conduct.
For being a perfectionist.
For not achieving perfection.
For being me.
Insignificant.
If you really read my blog, you would leave a comment on my chat.
But nvm.
Bye.

I love helping people. It feels good.
And when the girls asked how i know so much, i feel good knowing that i am complimented.
Gonna get nexus next year dec ba. I hate myself.
For not being an attention seeker. Could have gotten what i want by being a fun guy... But i stick to morals.... Sigh.....
I love coach.(:he is awesome.....
Do you love me? Obviously you dont.
Or else you would tag.

Bye.

Introverts.

Got this from Guo hao who got this somewhere,and this is 100% true.
Most of us introverts hate labels.

Hi. I’m Sonya. And I’m an introvert. (Now you say, “Hi, Sonya.”)

Dictionary.com defines introvert in a couple of ways. The first definition it gives is “a shy person”. I happen to disagree with this definition, especially since it defines shy as “easily frightened away”, “suspicious”, “distrustful”, and “reluctant”. The second definition offered is “a person characterized by concern primarily with his or her own thoughts and feelings.” I agree with the second definition more than the first, although the second one kinda makes it seem like introverts are self-centered. Normally, dictionary.com is my friend. But sadly, it has failed me this time.

Honestly, the first time I’d ever even heard the word “introvert” was when I was subjected to the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator assessment (MBTI). It wasn’t until later that I actually learned that I was stricken with this “ailment” called introversion.

If the creators of the MBTI were still alive, I would want to meet those chix in a dark alley somewhere and drop-kick them and have a conversation with them about how, albeit unintentional, they’ve made life harder for introverts. It is amazing to me how people STILL make a strong distinction between the character or personality traits of introverts versus extroverts like it really matters. People act like the results of the MBTI are real medical test results. They begin to develop a “treatment plan” for you if your results yield any letter combination that begins with an “I”. Introverts get a bad rap! Meanwhile, extroverts get off scot-free like they’re the normal ones! Did you know there is a manual on “How to Care for Introverts”?? No joke. There is also an introvert’s guide on how to make it in the business world, an introvert’s guide to test-taking, and the list goes on and on and on. Just google “introvert” and see what comes up. I wonder if my health insurance plan covers introversion…I might call and ask them (and document that conversation for a future blog post…)

So let me clarify some things and dispel a few misconceptions for you…

What being an introvert means:

1) I am quiet. Generally speaking. Not necessarily shy—quiet. There is a difference. I observe, non-listen, reflect more, and talk less. Generally speaking. I don’t have a problem talking to you, or in front of you, IF I have something to say. If I don’t, I won’t talk for the sake of talking.

2) I don’t get my energy from you. I am quite a handful, if I do say so myself. Therefore, I’m able to self-generate all the energy I need. Thanks.

3) I value my alone time. I guess this is kinda the same as #2, huh?

What being an introvert DOES NOT mean:

1) I dislike you. You’ll just have to trust me on this one.

2) I’m afraid of/intimidated by you. Similar to the saying, “Don’t take my kindness for weakness”, please “Don’t take my quietness for fear.”

3) I’m anti-social. Au contraire mon frère. It’s just that a conversation with me will go a lot quicker. I value efficiency. For example, if I were an extrovert, a conversation with me might go something like this:

“Hey, Sonya! How was your weekend?”

“It was good! I did hot yoga, saw a movie, had dinner with some friends, did some shopping, got my hair done, went to church, got some gas, wrote a couple of blog posts, baked a cake, checked the mail (

“My parents came in town and we all went hiking up Mt. Wutshisface Saturday and had a picnic.”

“That sounds interesting. I’ve been saying for a while now that I wanted to hike Mt. Wutshisface.”

“Yeah, it’s really beautiful. You should check it out.”

“I will! What’d you do Sunday?”

“We rode bikes around the Mall and went to like seven of the Smithsonian’s. Then we hit up the Farmer’s Market and volunteered at a soup kitchen. After that we rescued a cat from a tree.”

“Cool! Talk to you later!”

But since I’m an introvert, the conversation will likely go something like this:

“Hey, Sonya! How was your weekend?”

“It was good, thanks!”

*Cuts light off and exits room. But then returns to cut light back on after realizing that you are still in there.*

See how much more efficient that was?

So the next time you pass an introvert in the hall or on the street, give ‘em a hug and tell ‘em you understand. Or don’t. Cuz that would be weird.

via Introverts vs. Extroverts: It’s Time to Set the Record Straight

Back to posting

Biggest exam ever man.
Well, at least i know how to prepare now. At the very least, i am prepared for lit.
Kinda prepared for emath, amath, chem.
Need to work on poa, physics, ss, eng, chin.
But anyway.

Not worrying, not worrying. Nothing to worry about.(:
Not going to "look" stress.
Not gg to be stress.
Yayyyyy.
Time to read the bible.
You just wasted time.:D
Byeeeeee.(:

Something I read:from pastor Rick Warren, saddleback Church.
Motivation is contagious. I never try to motivate other people. I focus on motivating myself. When I’m motivated, I know others will catch my enthusiasm.

This is true in any area of ministry. If you stay motivated, those you lead will become motivated too. Below are nine ways I keep myself motivated. There’s nothing unusual or ground-breaking on this list, but these methods work for me and I’m confident they will work for you.

1. Put your plans on paper. Write out what you want to accomplish. Dawson Trotman said, “Thoughts disentangle themselves when they pass through the lips and the fingertips.” If I can say it and I can write it down, then it’s clear. If I haven’t written it down, then it’s vague. Just putting what you have to do down on paper will often relieve some stress and allow you to focus on your task.

2. Break big tasks into small steps. When I know I have a task coming up, I always write down the specific steps I need to take before the project is done. When I’m preparing a sermon, I ask myself, “What do I have to do to finish the sermon?” Then I write down all of the associated tasks, such as collecting the verses, studying the verses, looking for illustrations, thinking through quotes, and organizing the presentation. Sermons don’t just fall out of your brain automatically. We all go through specific steps as we’re doing it. Just learn to isolate those steps.

3. Decide where you want to start. After you’ve broken down the task into steps, ask yourself what needs to be done first. For example, if you’re preparing a sermon, what’s the very first thing you have to do? Discover your topic? Pray? You need to figure out where to start.

4. Establish check points to track your progress. Give yourself deadlines for each of the tasks needed to finish the project.

5. Start on the task whether you feel like it or not. Be honest with yourself. Usually when we say we can’t do something, we really mean we don’t want to do it. You’ve got to get tough. Most of the people who succeed in this world are those who don’t feel like doing what they’re doing. Successful people have developed the habit of doing things unsuccessful people don’t feel like doing.

6. Remind yourself of the benefits of completing the task. A lot of times I do this when I’m preparing a message. I’ve had a real long week, and my mind just isn’t there. I ask myself, “What is this going to accomplish?” In Hebrews, the Bible says, Jesus endured the cross because he looked to the joy beyond it.

It is easy in ministry to lose sight of what we are really doing: we are serving the God of the universe, and he is working through us to change lives! When things seem boring or mundane, remember the joy set before you.

7. Do a small part right now. Get started! Don’t stall. I play a game with myself all the time called The Five-Minute Game. When I have a big topic or task I need to do, I just say, “I don’t want to do this, but I’ll give it five minutes.” Once I get started, it doesn’t seem like such a big deal anymore.

8. Be optimistic. Optimism creates energy. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve come into church and didn’t think I could make it through what I had to do. But I walked in saying, “In Christ, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Optimism can make all the difference in the world.

9. Establish an action environment. Create a place in your office where you can get all of your tools together for your task. If you’re preparing a sermon, find a place to get your Bible and your study aids all within reach. You need an environment where you can focus on the task at hand. I clear everything off the desk when I’m going to study because I don’t want to focus on anything else.

I’ve noticed some people use their desks as file cabinets. They say it is because they don’t want to forget what is there. But that’s the problem! You sit down to prepare a sermon and you see your phone list or a book you’ve wanted to read and, suddenly, you’ve drifted off task.

Success comes from focusing on one thing at a time. Clear off your desk. Make a to-do list so you won’t forget what you’ve taken off of your desk. Put a tickler file on your desk of stuff you need to look at every day, but then, when you pull it out and look through it, always put it back – so it won’t distract.

Today is not a bad day.
For once, i could study.
I actually did math for 1.5hour.
Improvement. Indeed.
So "technically" i am done for math. Then another 1.5 hours of physics later and done.
After that, today is free.
So sad that I am slow and I did not learnt the prechorus of always by erasure well.
Haiz...
Oh well.
Today is a beautiful day.
Bye.
Gonna read the bible lo.




3 DAYS TO SURVIVOR SOUTH PACIFIC ft. COACH AND OZZY

Yup. Its a post.

Anyway since not many would see this, i dont mind saying some stuff. Now that joseph and lester are off, i have only one tutor left-jian xiong. And he's cool. He is good at physics. But after two weeks. I will be left alone. But it's ok. I can study on my own. I have made my own note for science in psle, and i already did for physics. What's left is just chemistry, math(both), and my humanities(poa and ss and lit) other than that, everything is cool.
I learnt how to play always by erasure already. So happy.
Something else that could make me happy-->someone reading this and say something. Someone I KNOW. like seriously. But I'm fine. The serenity level of my blog keeps me calm as well.
And for the last time, i do not like anyone now.
Haiz... Bye. I will still survive.
Survivor south pacific is starting soon. Do catch it this thursday, sg chn5,evening(arnd 5)+8GMT. Bye.

Mixture

You dont know how happy i am.
I defeated a grand master in chinese chess.
So happy.:D
I rarely can draw with a person of a higher level, like my friend stephen would is better than me a little.
And i actually won my teacher.
Third time lucky heh.
First time- good fight.
Second time- totally trashed.
Third time-win!!!
Yayyyy. I am so happyyy.:)
I would even celebrate.
Congratz to heok yong who won too.
Haiz.... This blog is dead...



Also, today is a day of renewal. I need to start to do my work. No tuition equals to full work. No dinner anyway. Not starving, just on diet. I am 40kg. And i am heavier than fr, so cut down. Too heavy...

Lord Jesus,
Show me how to live,
Teach me how to pray...
Teach me in your ways...

Well, God is a just God.
Matt 6:19?
Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you.
Duet 28:13
For you shall be the head and not the tail, you shall be above only, and not be beneath, if you heed the commandments of the Lord your God, which I command you today, and are careful to observe them.
You see, there is newton's law shown here even before newton was born.
An action will have an equal re-action.
When you put God first(in which God first family second vocation third), God will give you the desires of your heart. But only if you trust the Lord with all your heart, strength, soul and mind, then only will he shine his glory through you.
If you heed God's commandment, God will make you first, lift you up. And you will never ever be shortchanged. Thus, i have come to a conclusion.
Prov3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.

We should all live by that, to trust in God.
God has it all planned out.
No fear should come into our hearts.
For God knows and knows amd he knows, and everything will turn out fine.

If you still dont believe me, read the book of job in the bible.
For he trusted wholeheartedly in God.

I walk by faith

I Walk By Faith

I walk by faith
Each step by faith
To live by faith
I put my trust in you

Every step i take
Is a step of faith
No weapon formed against me shall prosper
Every prayer i make
Is a prayer of faith
If my God is for me
Then who can be against me(:

The prayer of faith.
For when we are weak, then can God be strong.
In every step you make,
No matter what is the circumstances, do it- in faith.
Believe that Jesus will guide your path.
And Jesus is intercessing for you in heaven.(:
So if He is for you, who can be against you?

Be cheerful.
"if my people who are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then i will hear from heaven, and then i will forgive their sin and heal their land."

Turn and trust in God!!

Show me.

School!! School reopened!
A week of school just passed by.
9 more weeks to a break~
oh well.

I had a greaaaaat week.
One of the awesome things I did was reading adam young's blog.

Awesome posts there. Especially the one about introverts.
Adam strengthened my faith in jesus too. With encouraging verses splattered everywhere, it is impossible to stay sad.
I have been reading the book of ephesians this week and came across many verses. They were all very direct and relevant to what i am going through for this period of time. So very impactful.
One verse i would talk about:
Eph 4:22-27
You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness. Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbour, for we are all members of one body. In your anger do not sin; do not let the sun go down while you are still angry and do not give the devil a foothold.

Impactful.
By this law i should live my life.

On saturday the song "show me" was used to praise the lord. I felt emerge was coming.
~show me how to live
Teach me how to pray
Let all I think and say please you lord
Show me how to live
Teach in your ways
That I may walk with you all my days~
By far one of my faves.
I love you God.

Now i really know that God is for me, working through me, gonna use me in a great way, and i shall glorify his name.

"if my people would humble themselves and pray..."

Disorders.

Schizophrenia is a mental disorder characterized by a disintegration of thought processes and of emotional responsiveness. It most commonly manifests as auditory hallucinations, paranoid or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech and thinking, and it is accompanied by significant social or occupational dysfunction. The onset of symptoms typically occurs in young adulthood, with a global lifetime prevalence of about 0.3–0.7%. Diagnosis is based on observed behavior and the patient's reported experiences. 
Schizophrenia often leads to major depression and the suicide rates are higher.
Life expectancy shorter.
Such people often face problems like poverty and homelessness too.


Symptoms:
Impairment in social cognition
paranoia
social withdrawal


Often happen in:
Late adolescence
Early adulthood
Critical periods of one's life


One sub type is paranoia type. Where delusions and hallucinations are present but thought disorder, disorganized behavior, and affective flattening are absent.


Another is disorganized type.Weird speech usage, weird behavior and impairment in thought and response.


Dealing with paranoia.
Often what you believe is not what others really think.
Stop having low self esteem, believe in yourself.
People are not there to hurt you.
You do have many real friends.


Thats all, enjoy.